Get This.

So, I've come to realize that a relationship that includes kids is really hard. You no longer judge on who they are but, also, on how they raise their children and their views on parenting. I believe I jumped into my relationship too early before knowing anything about him and his parenting. I'm a disciplinarian. Him, not so much. It's always, "well, I've seen it with Chloe ( His x's daughter ) so there is not anything I can do, it's just a phase." All because he doesn't get his kids until Thursday night then has to give them back Monday morning. To be honest wth you, when he has his kids I hate him. I can't stand being around him. I can't stand how his kids are angels and mine is the one causing hell. How his daughter is close to 10 months old and he freaks when my 12 month old son has to crawl over her when she's in the way of his path. When they are here, my son doesn't get his toys because Jack (his son) has claimed them and doesn't get his binkies because his son and him are always giving them to his daughter, Dakota. For example, Kenny just had his first birthday on Friday. We had a party on Saturday for him and he got a Tonka Truck that his second cousin bought him, he's only had a chance to play with it once and that was to 1:00 am when Jack was sleeping. Another example, I just bought Kenny 2 new pooh bear binkies because the other ones got lost due to him letting his daughter using them and loosing them. Well, There is now only one and she's ALWAYS using it. I swear, I want to pull my hair out. Oh, get this, Sunday morning Steve was doing stuff around the house and I was washing Kenny's glow worm since it was dirty, Kenny and Dakota were in the hallway playing with Kenny's new Leap Frog Alphabet Ride-on Train, Kenny tries to get on it and it falls over right infront of Dakota and Kenny was just over top of her legs. I run over because I know how Steve freaks out over something happening to his kids. Steve comes over and takes the toy away from Kenny like he did something wrong. Who the fuck does he think he is? Not my son's father so he does NOT have the right to take anything of his away from him. He knew I was livid. I asked him,"Why did you take that away?!" He resonded with, " Niether one of us can watch him ." Which I know it had nothing to do with him except him causing harm to Dakota. I'm not an idiot. I did not talk to him for half of the day. I don't understand, he isn't Kenny's father and doesn't want to be but wants to act like his authority. I don't fucking think so.