You Fool!

Ok. Explain this to me. He calls after not talking in months and tells me he's thinking about divorcing his wife leading me to think he wants to be with me. We can only talk while he's working because his wife suspects him of cheating. Which, he's not, yet. He has plans on cheating. He proceeds to tell me that he'd rather have me on the side instead of not at all. I told him I'm tired of being the girl on the side. I want to be the girl or not at all. So once we have fun sending pictures and doing our thing for 2 days, he just all of a sudden is all ," I can't talk because she's now thinking I'm cheating and I'll have to text you when ever it's over." Ok idiot! Delete your messages she won't know. It's not like we're doing anything. Plus, if it wasn't for me telling him that i didnt want to be with him then, she wouldnt have him or his baby. The bitch needs to be appreciative. He needs to be a man and stop fucking around. He's the one that jumped into a marriage and didn't know her for longer than 4 months. Then got her pregnant before they were even married. All because he was in such a rush to have a family. Just because I said no doesn't mean go get hitched immediately. He only wanted it because I was 2 months pregnant and had hopes of having a family when he was interrested. So when that didn't work out as planned he's gone and done something stupid. The only good thing that came out of it was his son. I'm so sick of it. Don't fuck with me. I know i said no to him but that was because he was constantly wanting to see me and I need my space and I let him know that. I also was playing my game with other men. I was going through my game phase. SO, after him being married I was emotionally crushed. I told him the day of his elopement not to, that I'll be with him and he didn't listen. Now look at what he's going through. He didn't listen to me. I know what I'm talking about my brother did the same damn thing. To this day he's not happy. Yeah, I'm pissed due to the fact he wants to just use me. He doesn't want me for me. He wants my shit. Sorry babe, I'm not the same woman as before. If you want me, it better be for me. Its now for love not fun.

What The Hell?!

You know what I don't get? Why they hell the cost of living is rediculous when the average person doesn't make near enough to live comfortably. If the average person is living comfortably financially they arn't living comfortably in their neighborhood. I'm sitting here looking for apartments and homes for rent and everything i $995 and above for homes, and good apartments are $850+ with complimentary surround sound into you'e neighbors apartment. We're trying to find a home so the baby and the dog have a place to play and run around but, the houses I've been finding in our price range are ghetto. If i was able to get a job and not have to pay for a baby sitter every week then maybe we could live comfortably. I swear people just make it so damn hard. I mean having to go get approved through D.E.S. for medical assistance and financial aid is just rediculous. You should see the lines in that place. The many people that go through what i do everyday. I was very close to going with out diapers and formula for my son today for 2 weeks. What happened to the days where one person worked and could afford to feed their whole family and provide a roof over their heads? Now both parents have to have full time jobs or one has to work 3 jobs just to keep their home. Will the future president really do anything about this. Yeah, their giving out money to the people that don't make 75,000 a year but it's only 600 and that's not going to do much. That's not fixing the problem. Hell, a few years ago they said the same damn shit and they gave out 500 instead of 600 and left it at that. I feel like they arn't going to make a change and everything will just be as it is. Hell, will they even pull the troops out of Iraq?