Waiting For That Happily Ever After

It's always a little girls dream to grow up and find her Prince Charming and have a wedding fit for a princess. For the past two days, that's all I can think about. Why hasn't it happened to me and why isn't it happening? Is there something wrong with me? I want a family, I want to give my husband children. Everyone I talk to are players or still partying. I am past that. I understand that I jumped a couple of steps and had a baby first but that should not take that right away from me. I should still be able to carry out my dream of being a wife. I deserve a chance but half the time they all want is sex.

What is happening to the world today? Males feel that they don't need to settle down if they can have many different women the rest of their life or are women haters because of a few bad relationships. Do they not realize they make us woman, espesually me, feel that there is no hope. I want my fairy tale ending. I'm ready for it. I am yerning to be loved and to love back.

Court's Adjourned!

January 22, 2009 at 1:30 PM, The court Marshall enters the room, "All Rise!" The judge enters the room and takes a seat. "You may sit," he says. At this point I'm thinking "Oh Shit! This is going to be bad. He's not going to let me off easy. I have too many charges." As the judge gets himself situated, the state prosecutor walks into the room, up to the judge and grabs a file. " Hello, gorgeous!" runs through my mind. Once the prosecutor returns back to the door he call my name, "Brittany Barnes!" I immediately stand and follow him to the room. I think, "How lucky." Yeah, of course this is reality and nothing happens. He's there to negotiate. "The only two charges I am concerned about are the charges of driving with a suspended license and driving without an Arizona License." So he tells me what my options are. He wants to drop the charges of driving a vehicle with no insurance and driving a vehicle with suspended plates. The vehicle was not in my name so it was not his concern. My option is to plea guilty to the two charges and pay a fine of $602 or get my license re-instated with in a month and the charges will be dropped to $142, Or not plea guilty, return back to court with an attorney to fight my case. We all know what I chose. I got extremely lucky. I sign the papers needed to continue to proceed to talk with the judge. I walk back into the courtroom and wait to be called. "Brittany Barnes!", the judge calls after waiting 20 minutes. I take the stand and he asks me all his questions. All the answers are "yes". He asks me how I plea. At this point I never thought this word would ever come out of my mouth, "Guilty." I can't believe it, I feel like a criminal. Once I acknowledge that I understand my penalties to the crime and the action in which will be taken if I do not accept the penalties, I take a seat and wait for the clerk. The clerk calls my name. By this point I can't ever forget my name. The clerk has me fill out a yellow sheet of paper at my seat and bring it back up to her when I am done. Once my paper was turned back in she says, " The Court Marshall will call you to figure out a payment plan with you,please have a seat." I've been playing musical chairs this whole time. It would have been funner if they had music and minimized the amount of chairs in that place. After an hour of being in that courtroom, the Court Marshall calls me in. We go over my penalties and payments. He cuts me a deal, "You look like a nice person, so I'm going to give you 3 months opposed to a month to make your payment since I don't know which you will be making." "Thank you so much!" I can't believe it. I was let off easy. So now, it's off to find some money and give Virginia DMV a call to find out what action I need to take to get my license back. ^.^ I'm getting my license back!

Us in 2009!

Welcoming the New Year

2009 has FINALLY come! I know I may be a little late on posting about 2009 but this year is going to be the year of change. Starting off the 2009 year is the enauguration of Barack Obama, the nations first Black (mixed race) President. I hope he brings good change to this country, since it's going to shit. More people losing homes, jobs, and mental stability. With this happening I have hope of a more personal change. I feel that this year is going to be the year that we will be able to pick ourselves up and be comfortable with where we are at in our lives.

Update from 2008:

January: Moved from FL to AZ
April: Started Online College
Met Shit Head (Steve)
July: Kenny's 1st birthday
August: Broke it off with Shit Head
Sept: Got into dispute with Aunt (Mother's HALF sister)
Had no place to live so moved in with Shit Head
Oct: My 21st!
Nov: Moved out of Shit Heads into a new Apt. Yay!
Dec: Got Caught driving on suspended license, uninsured vehicle, and suspened plates (GAY!)
Mother lost her job due to Liquidation (2 Days before Christmas)